Really Bummed

English: insulin resistance model

English: insulin resistance model (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

GlucAffect - Metabolic Syndrome

GlucAffect – Metabolic Syndrome (Photo credit: Reliv International)

I am really bummed out here people! I have been home for three weeks. I felt like I was doing okay but have had some carb cravings from hell! I have gained 5 pounds!! Seriously, not cool.

So, I am going back on the high protein and low carb WOL. See, I have Metabolic Syndrome or Syndrome X or whatever they are calling it these days. 22 years ago I was diagnosed with PCOS – Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. Basically, my ovaries slowly stopped fully producing eggs and my metabolism slowed and I started gaining weight. Doctors did not know much about PCOS at the time. There were three options: take Provera four times a year, take birth control pills (did not work), or have a pie-shaped cut taken out of my ovaries – not sure how or why this was to help, really.

Three years later all put the ovaries were removed. One of the “side-effects” of not menstruating regularly is cervical dysplasia. Squamous cell carcinoma. After that, I was put on Spironilactone and Actos. No, not really helpful.

Three more years and additional weight I was diagnosed with hypertension, high lipids and triglycerides. Lipitor.

Then Insulin Resistance – IR – my cells stopped accepting the insulin needed to process the glucose. The body increases the insulin because the cells say “hey, we need insulin!” It is a vicious cycle. Metformin/Glucophage.

Here we are, fifteen years later and no better off. More is known but each doctor treats it differently. I have been told to eat more fiber and exercise more. I have had my Metformin doubled. My new doctor (I moved) doesn’t give Metformin, he says to eat a low glycemic diet.

I was also diagnosed with hypothyroidism. Synthroid.

Lyme Disease. Strong antibacterial. Lyme Disease sucks. Joint pain. Crazy pain. Tired. At my worst, I can sleep for 10-12 hours. My norm is about 6 when I am feeling good.

But, back to those five pounds. It may not seem to be a whole lot but when you are trying to lose 70 and you gain 5? Well, it kind of sucks. ANY carbs leads to carb cravings and overdose. To lose weight, none. Nada.

I have done the Syndrome X Diet back when I was first diagnosed and it worked. Really well. BUT, it is HARD. H-A-R-D! I had such severe cravings, like coming down or the DTs, I would sit on the couch and cry. My poor family could do nothing. The desire was tempered by my desire to not have a stroke or heart attack. I was scared.

Not as scared now. Probably because I hurt and am tired all the time. I realize that I need to figure out how to eat without the cravings and still lose weight. The extreme diet I used in the past is too extreme. I work with PK-4th grade kids, I need to have my sanity.

So, I am doing the protein drink in the morning. Chicken and salad for lunch. Meat and veg (green beans or broccoli) for dinner. I need to drop the 70 for my health and well-being.

Pray for me … and my husband. 😀


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